#LDSConf – Ether 7

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The son of Jared reigned in righteousness (verse 1), and his family grew and prospered (verse 2).  When he passed, his son took the throne (verse 3).  His son began his family, including having a son named Corihor.

When Corihor was grown, he rebelled against his father, and left the land, drawing many after him (verse 4).  He gathered these people as an army, and marched against his father to take him captive (verse 5).  This fulfilled what Jared’s brother had said about choosing kings would lead to their captivity (verse 5).  The king was held captive until he was very old, but had another son named Shule while he was in captivity (verse 7).

As Shule grew up in captivity, he became angry with his brother that reigned over them unrighteously and on a stolen throne.  He grew strong, and mighty, and wise (verse 8).  He gathered others who wanted to reclaim the rightful thrown for his father, and they made swords to arm themselves, and fought for the kingdom and restored it to his father (verse 9).

Because Shule had done this righteously, winning the kingdom but then returning it to his father, his father the king gave it back to his son Shule (verse 10) who then reigned in righteousness (verse 11).  Shule’s family grew (verse 12), and he made peace with Corihor, even giving Corihor power after he repented (verse 13).

Corihor’s family also grew, including having a son named Noah (verse 14).  This son rebelled (as his father had) against king Shule, and against his father Corihor (verse 15).  He battled against them, stealing some of the land and making himself king there (verse 16), taking Shule captive (verse 17).

The night before Noah was going to kill Shule, the sons of Shule snuck into the house and killed Noah in his sleep, breaking Shule out of prison and restoring him to his throne (verse 18).

So there is a pattern, where the children make the same bad choices they learned from their parents, repeating the mistakes of their parents, and suffering the same consequences they had inflicted on others.

But there is also a pattern of good children making good choices, following the good patterns of their parents, fighting for righteous dominion and honoring their parents by restoring them to their proper places, and being blessed for these good choices.

Now the country was divided into two kingdoms: the kingdom of Shule, and the kingdom of the son of Noah who was killed in his sleep) (verse 20).   The son of Noah tried to battle Shule, but Shule won (verse 21).

But then we see something new happen: repentance.  This is another pattern.  There are children who learn to repent by seeing their parents repent.  Cohiror did repent, and so was given honor and power in righteous ways.  So also does Nimrod repent, on behalf of his family, giving his inherited kingdom (from the son of Noah) back to Shule (verse 22).  This gained him favor with Shule, who granted him freedom and favors.

It was a season of repentance.  The Lord sent prophets among the people to tell them that their bad choices were “bringing a curse upon the land, and they should be destroyed if they did not repent” (verse 23).  The people would not listen, and even mocked the prophets, so much that Shule had to punish those who had reviled the prophets (verse 24).   King Shule made a law giving prophets the freedom to go where they wanted for preaching, and this was a rebuke to the people who “were brought unto repentance” (verse 25).

The Lord kept His promise, and spared the people when they repented, and the people began to prosper again (verse 26).  The people had peace in the Lord, with no more wars, because they “remembered the great things that the Lord had done” and so the king reigned in righteousness (verse 27).

Chaplains in Training

Last night the kids worked hard preparing a chapel service:

And they did so well this morning!

The chaplains loved them, and they adore the other chaplains!

Mary even had her dream come true of meeting my colleague Madeline Manning Mims, an Olympic athlete who is now becoming the chaplain to TeamUSA for the Olympics. She was so thrilled!  Madeline was lovely to her, blessing her with both song and identity. It was so good for her!

#LDSConf – Ether 6

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Now Moroni proceeds with “the record of Jared and his brother” (verse 1).  He tells us that Jared’s brother put the stones in the vessels as light (verse 2), “and thus the Lord caused stones to shine in darkness, to give light unto men, women, and children, that they might not cross the great waters in darkness” (verse 3).

So also is Christ our light in the mists of darkness, our path Home through mortality.

When the people finished preparing the food for the trip, they boarded their vessels “commending themselves unto the Lord their God” (verse 4).  The Lord sent winds that blew the vessels (verse 5).  Even when vessels were “many times buried in the depths of the sea” (verse 6), “there was no water that could hurt them” because their vessels were sealed tight as Noah’s ark had been (verse 7).  The wind never stopped, always blowing them forward to the promised land (verse 8).

So also are we prepared for all things, knowing that even afflictions and storms are necessary in refining us and pushing us in the right direction, even towards our promised land, even our Father’s presence.

And they did sing praises unto the Lord; yea, the brother of Jared did sing praises unto the Lord, and he did thank and praise the Lord all the day long; and when the night came, they did not cease to praise the Lord (verse 9).

While their vessels were driven forth, nothing could destroy them, and they did have light continually.

So also do are we driven through mortality by storms and afflictions, but we do also always have His light – and nothing can destroy us.  2 Corinthians 4:8-9 says:

We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed…

For nearly a year, the families of Jared and his brother were driven across the waters (verse 11) before landing in the promised land (verse 12):

… And when they had set their feet upon the shores of the promised land, they bowed themselves down upon the face of the land, and did humble themselves before the Lord, and did shed tears of joy before the Lord, because of the multitude of his tender mercies over them.

They had been protected and provided for, arriving safely in the land that was promised.  It was time to get to work, tilling the earth (verse 13) and continuing their families (verses 14-16).  As their families grew, “they were taught to walk humbly before the Lord; and they were also taught from on high” (verse 17).

That “taught from on high” is Temple talk.  It means, among other things, that they received the ordinances they needed as their families grew not only physically but also spiritually.  The blessings are then given as evidence, as tokens of a covenant-keeping people, in that their families prospered as did their land.  “They did wax strong in the land” (verse 18).

When the brother of Jared grew old, he asked Jared to gather the people to number them – which is also to bless them – “that we may know of them what they will desire of us before we go down to our graves” (verse 19).  The people were gathered (verse 20), and asked what they needed before their patriarchs passed from mortality (verse 21).

The children asked for one of their sons to be a king over them (verse 22).  This grieved their parents, and Jared’s brother warned the children that this would lead to their captivity (verse 23).  However, Jared himself consented, telling the children to choose their king from amongst them (verse 24).

The people chose the eldest of the children of Jared’s brother, but he refused (verse 25). The people tried to get Jared’s brother to force him, but Jared’s brother knew it was not good for the people and would not force his son to be king over them.

Then the people tried to choose the other children of Jared’s brother, but all of them refused (verse 26).  They understood their father’s teaching, and knew it would not be a good thing.  Rather than putting everyone at risk, they remained humble and faithful to what their father had taught.

Finally, the people began to ask the sons of Jared, and none of them would be king, either – except one, and he was made king (verse 27).  He reigned according to the Lord, as his father and uncle had taught them, and the people prospered (verse 28).

And it came to pass that Orihah did walk humbly before the Lord, and did remember how great things the Lord had done for his father, and also taught his people how great things the Lord had done for their fathers (verse 30).

Then Jared and his brother passed away from mortality (verse 29).

#LDSConf – Ether 5

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Moroni states that he has written what has been commanded, to the best of his memory, and that he has told us which records are sealed up as sacred unto it is the wisdom of God to reveal those things (verse 1).

He then speaks directly to the prophet Joseph Smith, who will later receive the sacred records from Moroni himself.  He tells him that he may show the plates “unto those who shall assist to bring forth this great work” (verse 2).

He tells us also that the sacred records will be shown unto three, and that they will know that these things are all true (verse 3).

(See the “Testimony of Three Witnesses” at the beginning of the Book of Mormon)

Moroni says that these records will be established by these three witnesses (verse 4):

in the which shall be shown forth the power of God and also his word, of which the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Ghost bear record – and all this shall stand as a testimony against the world at the last day.

Moroni declares the whole purpose of these scripture records, saying that if the people will repent and come to the Father through the Savior, “they shall be received into the kingdom of God” (verse 5).

It’s that simple.

We study, to learn who our Father says we can become and to recognize who we have been – and realize the discrepancy between the two.

We claim the atonement, the Son, to bridge that gap, and it is through Him that we are able to be received, to enter His presence, to return to be with our Father-in-Heaven.

That’s what the whole entire collection of records teach us, what the whole Book of Mormon is about.

This is the Temple pattern, the teachings of the Book of Mormon, the words of the Savior.

It’s that simple.

And now, if I have no authority for these things, judge ye; for ye shall know that I have authority when ye shall see me, and we shall stand before God at the last day.  Amen (verse 6).

Mommy Wars

If I had known yesterday was going to unfold the way it did, I would have just written a blog from the beginning instead of posting eighty million times all over social media.

I relied on the support from friends today, though, as we fought through the weird day as it happened in bizarro land.

Part of what made it bizarre, though, is that at home everything was actually going really well.

I was on call overnight at the hospital on Thursday night, which gave me Friday off to spend with Nathan for our anniversary.  That’s not a special getaway or anything, but after three weeks away from home it was good to be at home with him for a whole day (while children were at school).  I worked hard on cleaning the house, catching up laundry, and doing my best to reclaim our home from me being gone several weeks in a row.

It felt really good, and was like a gift for Nathan, to have the help and for the house to be in better shape when he has Monday on his own again, so that he can spend his time writing.

After school on Friday, the campaign buttons we are selling to raise money for Kyrie arrived, so the kids were excited about that and wanted to make a short video.  Then Mary worked on riding her bike while the boys finished up their chores in time for family movie night.  The three second graders helped me make pizza while Nathan picked up the littles, and then we enjoyed Miracles from Heaven even though it was a little too close to home.

Saturday went as well:  Kyrie got her feeding tube pump finally, which means I don’t have to do it by gravity or syringe, which means no staying up all night just to feed her 5 mls every 15 minutes.  Now the machine can run at the rate we set but without us having to do it ourselves all night.  It also means it can run while we all eat together, and even she can still eat while it works to give her vital nutrients and energy she needs to breathe.  The children played happily, and we enjoyed our time together after missing each other.  We made pancakes while Nathan went to Bartlesville to clean out our freezers that were a mess after we had the power off but then a baby in crisis before we could finish the job, and he got them moved with help from the ward we miss to store the freezers in his parents’ storage unit until we can settle back into a home where we are staying.  It’s hard work squeezing into our tiny home, even if we know it is only for one year!

The littles helped me make lunch in time for Nathan to be home, and then I watched a movie with the second graders while the others all took naps.  Our evening was more “normal” in the best way, as we cooked together and sang together and washed dishes together and cleaned up for the coming Sabbath.  The children were mostly behaved, handled their squabbles on their own, and it was fun to be with them while they were so happy and full of positive energy.  We have many hard days, and many difficult moments, and they still carry such wounds and grief, so I love these moments when we are just at peace.

That was our weekend.  Even Sunday was lovely, with everyone ready for church on time, and Kyrie’s feeding pump slowing us down only a little as we figured out how to finish her feed while in Sacrament meeting.  But they were good, and she was SO BUSY with the extra energy, and the missionaries came over for a food storage surprise lunch.  We had such a good time!

We did also meet with the Bishop to ask for help for the second time in two years because of the medical dramas for all of us.  He gave us a food order, which we did not ask for, but I did cry, and he gave me ANOTHER talk about us being so self-reliant but needing to ask for help and utilize our resources of support.  He also had Nathan give me a blessing right there, so I pretty much just bawled my way through church yesterday.

I worked on the girls’ hair after the missionaries left yesterday, getting them all braided, and getting two evening meals prepped and ready for Nathan to pop in on nights I will make it home in time for supper this week but not early enough to be helpful in getting it ready.  We are all trying so hard to do our part this year, and it really is making us a good team as a family.  I can see how many blessings we have received as our attachment and bonding and unity have grown through this experience of being thrown together in real life in the crazy circumstances of this year.  I am grateful, because even though nothing has happened (ever) as we had planned, we can truly see how it has been exactly what we needed – and very good for us.

While all that was going on, however, the world was swirling around us like a tornado.  One bio-parent relapsed, so we had to call off visits until they are clean again.  Another just got out of jail, and is mad that she missed a visit day and wants hers rescheduled RIGHT NOW.  While I understand and appreciate her urgency to see her child, she has no idea the context of our family or how precarious things are with the baby even on a good day, or how hard it is to prepare the kids for another visit and the family exposure and the recovery after a visit.  Another bio-mom had a baby, and we did visit a week or two ago, but now DHS is already involved and our house is full and she needs to do what they say and there is not much we can do to help.  Then finally, Anber and Kyrie’s bio-mom got 17 years for all her charges and what she did to the baby, and her sentencing all this time later means moving from county jail to prison… and we were informed she was using suicide watch to avoid the transfer, but in the meantime the family is angry at me for upsetting her by keeping her girls when I didn’t have anything to do with them being placed into custody, or not being able to go to family, or needing adopting.  We did adopt when that was what they needed, but even then we have worked hard to try and maintain connections with the biological families in the ways that were safe and appropriate with those who cared.  We are doing our best, but it’s not my fault one of the moms got four felonies and sentenced to prison.

That was the context for my weekend, when I shared pictures of Kyrie carrying her tube feeding bag like a purse, which was totes adorbs.  How else do your normalize the challenges she goes through?  The bag is as big as she is, and even that almost too heavy for her because she is so tiny.  Needless to say, she cannot carry her feeding pump, which is bigger than her head.  Older kids, or stronger kids, or bigger kids, can carry it in a backpack so they can stay busy during feeding.  It’s just too much for her, so we still help her out.  Some other moms of children with challenges told us about the backpack in case we didn’t know, which was super helpful and something we look forward to someday.

But some other moms, who don’t know us, and who don’t know Kyrie, and who don’t understand how small she is, went crazy with telling us about the backpack and kind of disapproving of it in a way, that we hadn’t gotten it for her.

First of all, I’m not spending $80 on a backpack for a toddler.

Second of all, we have a small backpack she likes but the pump is too heavy for her.

Third, it’s one thing to be support and friend-ish and share tips – which we very much appreciate – but it’s another thing all together to be intrusive or pushy or accusatory because of mommy wars.

You know the mommy wars I mean.

The ones where instead of having opinions about public school or homeschool, moms are mean and rude about their own preference and look down on those with differing opinions.

The ones who instead of explaining in good debate their side of vaccinating or not, they are hateful because you did the other thing.

The ones who are bullies instead of compassionate, as if they are still back in high school, when the rest of us are way too old to even want to pretend that.

That’s why I was fed up and at my limit and out of patience for the mean moms – not the helpful ones – and posted on Facebook about the backpacks not being right for Kyrie.

Because we were really having a good weekend at home, very restful and very peaceful and very happy, despite the chaos and judgment and tornado of drama being thrown at us.

I didn’t want to get sucked in or lose time worrying about it.

I wasn’t going to let our peace get stolen.

I just wanted to scoop up all my children and hide them in a bubble of safety and provision and happiness, which I cannot often actually do.

I just wanted a day to celebrate a baby who had enough calories and oxygen to be a real toddler for one whole entire day.

I just wanted a day to celebrate a Barrett who didn’t scream at his teacher for three whole days in a row.

I just wanted a day to celebrate an Anber who was brave enough to talk out loud at church TWICE.

I just wanted a day to celebrate a Kirk, who is consistently opening doorknobs with his left hand while his right hand does other things, which is as much a miracle to our family as anything.

I just wanted a day to celebrate an Alex, who noticed all kinds of social cues during our afternoon of Anne of Green Gables while I braided and beaded the girls’ hair.

I just wanted a day to celebrate a Mary, who finally conquered the word “skunk”, which is actually pretty hard in speech therapy world.

So you see, I don’t have time for mommy wars.

Because my wars are fought advocating for a toddler to weigh more than her age, and encouraging a little boy to bless others with his words rather than screaming the curses he remembers from before he could talk, and to help a little girl finally believe she is safe, and to help a boy who just wants freedom to move, and to help another learn autism is a framework and not the enemy so that he can understand how to be a superhero, and to help a quickly growing up girl find her voice – even when her voice is on her hands.

Other moms, who understand that, are amazing.  They encourage me, and support our family, and let me take my turn and encouraging them from time to time as well.  I am pro mom-friendships.

And that’s exactly why I’m not going to war with other moms.

And I’m not going to fake all the good to avoid sharing what is hard or ugly, not if we are supposed to be learning together.

That’s where I am:  #TeamMom.

So yeah, fostering may be really hard, even after adoption.

And you can’t blame me that the baby is still alive.

It’s because she had a nurse who researched.  And a pediatrician who cared.  And a dozen billion other nurses who would do anything for her, and even more people than that who pray for her every day, and a preschool that believes in her and learns how to care for her as fast as she goes through their curriculum, and early intervention people that visited more times than they were paid to do and advocated in hospitals they aren’t required to visit, and even speech path – whom I normally would avoid – who did not give up on her and taught me how to keep her breathing and swallowing and moving that too-tiny-little-mouth.

That’s why she’s alive.

But so are her five siblings, and they matter, too, and they are miracles just as much as she is.

And our life, we have decided as a family, is going to move forward in faith.  Every day.  No matter the opposition.

So we don’t have time for mommy war nonsense or backpack drama.

Because we are busy watching miracle children conquer the world.

And nothing in life has ever been so hard as the last few years, but nothing has ever been as amazing.

I wouldn’t trade it – or them – for anything.

This is our family, you guys, and that’s a battle worth fighting.

#LDSConf – Ether 4

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Moroni continues the story of Jared’s brother seeing the Lord.

The Lord told Jared’s brother to leave this sacred Temple space, that when he left the Lord’s presence he should go down the mountain and write the things which he had seen (verse 1).  The Lord forbids him from sharing these things with others until it is time.   He says this will be after the resurrection, which is why King Mosiah did not share all of the records with the people when he got these records later (verse 1).

Then when the Savior appeared to the Nephites, he commanded that the people study these records (verse 2).

But by the time Moroni has watched the destruction of all his people, there is no one who accepts the gospel, much less believes enough for faith to become knowledge.  So the Lord tells him to again seal the records and hide them (verse 3).

Moroni says that he did write the things that Jared’s brother saw, “and there never were greater things made manifest than those which were made manifest unto the brother of Jared” (verse 4).  The Lord commanded Moroni to write about this, and then to seal the records, and to seal the interpretation of the records (verse 5).  Moroni writes that the Lord said the Gentiles cannot have these sacred records “until the day that they shall repent of their iniquity, and become clean before the Lord” (verse 6).

And in that day that they shall exercise faith in me, saith the Lord, even as the brother of Jared did, that they may become sanctified in me, then will I manifest unto them the things which the brother of Jared saw, even to the unfolding unto them all my revelations, saith Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the Father of the heavens and of the earth, and all things that in them are (verse 7).

There are penalties, the Lord says, for contending against these things or denying these things, “for unto them will I show no greater things” (verse 8).  All things are by His command, and He governs even the heavens and the earth, “and at my command the inhabitants thereof shall pass away, even so as by fire” (verse 9).

The Lord says that those who do not believe His words will not believe His disciples, either (verse 10).

He says that when He comes again in the last day, we will all know Him (verse 10), even those who have denied Him all along, and even those who have rejected His prophets.

But he that believeth these things which I have spoken, him will I visit with manifestations of my Spirit, and he shall know and bear record.  For because of my Spirit he shall know that these things are true; for it persuadeth men to do good (verse 11).

When we believe (have faith), His spirit will help us know (gain testimony).

When we know (have testimony), we will act (do something about) and testify.

That’s how it works.

Those who do not testify, and those who do not do what He asks, are those who do not know because they do not believe.

But those who know, at whatever level they understand so far, at whatever truth they understand so far, that is of God.  Whatever motivates us to do good is of Him, “for good cometh of none save it be of me.  I am the same that leadeth men to do all good… I am the light, and the life, and the truth of the world” (verse 12).

The Savior urges us to come to Him, to know beyond simple faith, because He wants to show us “the greater things, the knowledge which is hid up because of unbelief” (verse 13).   This has been the plan, He says, since the beginning of the world, and it is only waiting on our unbelief (verse 14).

Behold, when ye shall rend that veil of unbelief which doth cause you to remain in your awful state of wickedness, and hardness of heart, and blindness of mind, then shall great and marvelous things which have been laid up from the foundation of the world from you – yea, when ye shall call upon the Father in my name, with a broken and a contrite spirit, then shall ye know that the Father hath remembered the covenant which he made unto your fathers… and then shall my revelations… be made manifest in very deed (verses 15-16).

When this begins to happen, he says, then “ye may know that the work of the Father has commenced” (verse 17).

Therefore, repent all ye ends of the earth, and come unto me, and believe in my gospel, and be baptized in my name; for he that believeth and is baptized shall be saved… and signs shall follow them that believe in my name (verse 18).

There will be evidence to our conversion.  There will be fruits, from evidence of our changed beings (love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control – Galatians 5:22-23) to evidence of our testimony (bringing souls unto God – D&C 18:10).  Anything else is “unprofitable servants”, bad stewards, a lack of true conversion.

And blessed is he that is found faithful unto my name at the last day, for he shall be lifted up to dwell in the kingdom prepared for him from the foundation of the world.  And behold it is I that hath spoken it.  Amen. (verse 19)

Feeding on the Go

Kyrie has always loved a good purse.

We finally got a feeding machine so we can keep her fed without having to stay awake all night to do it or having todo it one syringe at a time.  She is already tolerating feeds better, and still eating some during the day.  She is gaining weight with this, finally, and with supplemental oxygen.  We are also, allegedly, finally on the list for a gtube.

#LDSConf – Ether 3

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(Ether 3, Ether 12, and Hebrews 10 very much go together.)

Now that the Lord had prepared Jared’s family for what they would experience, and now that He had instructed them in how to build safe vessels for the journey, He challenges Jared’s brother to problem solve the issue of light inside the vessels.

Jared’s brother knows the light cannot come externally, since there can be no windows, and he knows it cannot come from any fire source because the Lord already told him that would not work.  So he has to get creative.  He comes up with a kind of white stone that he asks the Lord to light up (verse 1).

There are several kinds of rocks that light up, or glow, depending on the minerals in them (some of these are on display in our local zoo).  It could have been these rocks that he chose, asking the Lord to bless the rocks to work as they were designed.  It is likely he used one of those rocks, since he says specifically that he did “molten” the rock, and so extracted minerals in some way, or fused them by melting; or, the rock itself is already glowing because of its minerals, and he is presenting it as a plan for use to see if the Lord approves.  Either way, it was rock that he chooses for the Lord to use to give them light on their journey.

Jared’s brother asks very humbly, acknowledging that they are weak while the Lord is holy, and saying that they know He lives in heaven while they are still unworthy.  He confesses that they easily fall into evil, and so have been commanded to call upon the Lord for help fulfilling what they have been asked to do – and so this is his prayer, asking in obedience according to those instructions, and in faith that the Lord will hear their prayer and respond as promised (verse 2).  He calls on the Lord’s mercy, and shows that he has done all he can do by using his resources, working hard through self-reliance, and presenting a plan for acceptance (verse 3).

Jared’s brother then testifies of the power of the Lord, and asks Him to simply touch the stones so that they will be prepared and ready to shine in the darkness (verse 4).  He then repeats again his testimony that the Lord is powerful enough to do this (verse 5).

The Lord answers Jared’s brother immediately, and He “stretched forth his hand and touched the stones one by one with his finger.  And the veil was taken from off the eyes of the brother of Jared, and he saw the finger of the Lord; and it was as the finger of a man, like unto flesh and blood; and the brother of Jared fell down before the Lord, for he was struck with fear” (verse 6).

Jared’s brother saw the Lord!  He was so startled that he fell to the ground!

The Lord tells him to arise, and ask why he fell (verse 7).

Jared’s brother explains that he really did see the actual finger of the Lord, and that he was surprised because he didn’t realize that the Lord “had flesh and blood” (verse 8).

The Lord tells Jared’s brother that he was able to see His finger because of his faith, and that “never has man come before me with such exceeding faith as thou hast; for were it not so ye could not have seen my finger” (verse 9).   He asks if he saw more than just the finger, and Jared’s brother says no and asks the Lord to reveal himself (verse 10).

The Lord asks if Jared’s brother will believe the things He will say (verse 11), and Jared’s brother replies (verse 12):

Yea, Lord, I know that thou speakest the truth, for thou art a God of truth, and canst not lie.

When Jared’s brother said this, the Lord did reveal Himself to him.  The Lord explains that He was able to do this because his faith (belief) turned into knowledge (testimony), and so he was redeemed and “therefore ye are brought back into my presence; therefore I show myself unto you” (verse 13).

Behold, I am he who was prepared from the foundation of the world to redeem my people.  Behold, I am Jesus Christ… In me shall all mankind have life, and that eternally, even they who shall believe on my name… (verse 14).

The Lord then says that never before has He shown himself “unto man whom I have created, for never has man believed in me as thou hast” (verse 15).  The Lord goes on to point out how he can see that he is made in God’s image (verse 16).

Moroni now interrupts the story, giving us another monologue, saying that he cannot here record all that happened in this interaction between the Savior and Jared’s brother.  He writes, “sufficeth me to say that Jesus showed himself unto this man… even after the manner and in the likeness of the same body even as he showed himself unto the Nephites” (verse 17).  Moroni also says that the Savior then ministered unto Jared’s brother just as he ministered unto the Nephites (and to the disciples in Israel); “and all this, that this man might know that he was God, because of the many great works which the Lord had showed unto him” (verse 18).

Moroni then explains something significant, commenting on what the Savior said earlier when Jared’s brother saw his finger and fell to the ground:

And because of the knowledge of this man, he could not be kept from beholding within the veil; and he saw the finger of Jesus, which, when he saw, he fell with fear; for he knew that it was the finger of the Lord; and he had faith no longer, for he knew, nothing doubting (verse 19).

It was faith no longer.

Because his faith had grown into knowledge.

It was no longer faith.  He knew.

Wherefore, having this perfect knowledge of God, he could not be kept from within the veil; therefore he saw Jesus; and he did minister unto him (verse 20).

Moroni returns to the story, sharing that the Lord told Jared’s brother that he must hold this experience sacred, and that he must not share it with everyone.  Instead, he must “treasure up the things which ye have seen and heard, and show it to no man” (verse 21).  The Lord tells him that what he writes must be written in a language that cannot be read, and that this writing must also be sealed (verses 22-23).  The Lord says that when the time is right, these writings will be revealed (verse 24).

The Lord then showed Jared’s brother all the people of the earth who had lived, and who will live, and withheld nothing from this vision (verse 25).  Because Jared’s brother could no longer be held from within the veil, then the Lord could show all things to him and nothing could be withheld (verse 26).  The Lord told him to write these things, and seal them up (verse 27) until the time the Lord chooses to reveal these things (verse 28).