What Nathan and I have been dreading finally happened today:
I took the boys for pizza and each of them ate a whole entire adult size pizza.
I thought we had two or three more years before that started!
It had finally stopped raining by the time they were (finally) done eating, so I brought them to the nearest playground to run and play while they had the chance before storms started again.
We drove passed a daycare where Kirk and Barrett used to go, and that’s where they remember me from so early. I was not their therapist at that daycare, but I had an office there and saw other kids. So I knew of the boys when they were little, and played with them sometimes. I like that we have our own history like that, since they came to us so much later than the other kids. It gives them a “first”.
Another first is that I am not working. At all. Well, a handful of hours, but those patients are moving so I will be finished soon. I love the agency I have worked for, and there is no drama with them, other than state budget cuts they have handled well as they could.
But with the children, and the baby’s issues, and the book, there is just no way to continue working full time or even part time.
Besides that, my post-doc is finished and it’s time for me to do my full residency for chaplaincy, so I need to let these patients close out so that it is done well and not take on more.
I don’t know if I will be able to do the residency or not, but all the children (except the baby) will be in school for the first time ever.
I can’t believe it.
I have applied for the residency at Hillcrest, and we will see if I get that, but hopefully my work there before was good enough that they will accept me as a resident. The program is from September to May, and would complete the CPE units I need as required by the church. I have two finished, and just need two more.
I don’t know what that means about us “moving quickly” as we have been promoted to prepare, but continuing to get our lives in order as best we can is all we can do to prepare until the next step is revealed to us.
It is terrifying. We lose insurance at the end of this month (the kids have insurance from their adoption). We need the book to do well to continue paying medical bills for me and the baby, plus her ongoing care now.
Nathan feels locked out as he continues trying to write songs and musicals and plays, but keeps being overlooked for writer/producer jobs that would give him income on a regular basis or any health benefits. Even violin students cancel left and right, so that income isn’t even predictable during the summer months.
We trust Heavenly Father, and understand He knows what He is doing, including His hilarious idea of creating us as starving artists.
Sufficient for our needs, that’s all we ask, and we know He will provide for us.
Any free time (ha!) has been spent shipping books and designing websites and signing marketing contracts. We want people to know about the book so that we can help create change for foster children and their families and for medical care of foster children. It’s too soon, though, to know if people like it or not, though. We are so anxious as we wait!
In the meantime, the children are growing so fast! They are becoming more independent and more individualized and more beautiful every day.
Also, more loud.