Starting Over

Tonight I finally got to play my cello again, and I started over at the beginning again.

Because starting over is better than not starting.

I practiced for almost two hours, and worked my way through my books back to where I left off.

I am grateful my mind and fingers remember so much!

But there is no substitute for playing daily, so my fingertips are raw and my sound is scratchy and my stamina is weak.

It will get better, because I will keep trying.

It’s such an obvious lesson for our spiritual lives and repentance and trying to be shiny.

Too often the adversary tries to make us quit because of mistakes we make, or because we blunder our own efforts, or because we are not as good as so and so.

Or worse, we make real mistakes he can use against us.

Except he can’t.  

Because we have the atonement, and it always covers us, and it is enough.

If we have felt disheartened or inadequate, we need only turn to our Heavenly Father and plead for his help. He will give it! It is a promise he has made to us that he will not break. Thus, so long as the Spirit is striving with us, there is always hope. But when we attempt to excuse our actions by saying, “This is the way I wish to live” or “I am different” or “God made me this way” or “My parents or society are responsible,” then we have arrived at a tragic state in our relationship with ourselves and with God.

If we will earnestly seek our Heavenly Father’s help and apply the steps that constitute the doctrine of repentance, then we will find peace and joy both in this life and in eternity.

~ Spencer W Kimball

Starting over is at least starting.


About Emily

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints since 2009. I serve as a Chaplain, and work as a counselor. I got bilateral cochlear implants in 2010, but will always love sign language. I choose books over television, and organics over processed. Nothing is as close to flying as ballroom dancing - except maybe running, when in the solo mood. I would rather be outside than anywhere else, especially at the river riding my bike or kayaking. PhD in Marriage and Family Therapy, and currently doing a post-doc in Jewish Studies and an MDiv in Pastoral Counseling. The best thing about Emily World is that it's always an adventure, even if (not so) grammatically precise. The only thing better than writing is being married to a writer. Nathan Christensen and I were married in the Oklahoma City temple on 13 October 2012, and have since fostered more than eighty-five children. We have adopted the six who stayed, and are totally and completely and helplessly in love with our family. Nathan writes musical theater, including "Broadcast" (a musical history of the radio) and an adaption of Lois Lowry's "The Giver". He served his mission in South Korea, has taught song-writing in New York City public schools, and worked as a theater critic for a Tucson newspaper. This is not an official Web site of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

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