Tonight I finally got to play my cello again, and I started over at the beginning again.
Because starting over is better than not starting.
I practiced for almost two hours, and worked my way through my books back to where I left off.
I am grateful my mind and fingers remember so much!
But there is no substitute for playing daily, so my fingertips are raw and my sound is scratchy and my stamina is weak.
It will get better, because I will keep trying.
It’s such an obvious lesson for our spiritual lives and repentance and trying to be shiny.
Too often the adversary tries to make us quit because of mistakes we make, or because we blunder our own efforts, or because we are not as good as so and so.
Or worse, we make real mistakes he can use against us.
Except he can’t.
Because we have the atonement, and it always covers us, and it is enough.
If we have felt disheartened or inadequate, we need only turn to our Heavenly Father and plead for his help. He will give it! It is a promise he has made to us that he will not break. Thus, so long as the Spirit is striving with us, there is always hope. But when we attempt to excuse our actions by saying, “This is the way I wish to live” or “I am different” or “God made me this way” or “My parents or society are responsible,” then we have arrived at a tragic state in our relationship with ourselves and with God.
If we will earnestly seek our Heavenly Father’s help and apply the steps that constitute the doctrine of repentance, then we will find peace and joy both in this life and in eternity.
~ Spencer W Kimball
Starting over is at least starting.