Writer Unblocked

Today. Was. Amazing.

After a week and a half of pain and nausea and fevers, so many bad days in a row, I woke this morning with much less pain, no appetite but no nausea, and no fever!

My brain was entirely clear of fog, as far as a foggy girl can tell, and I was alert as anything.

I decided, then, that I had two choices: either sit in my sick chair all day and get depressed because I could not do anything, or go sit in the office chair and try to write.

I did it! I got three articles done for Deseret!

It was amazing!

I felt liberated, indeed. Writing transports me away from time, wakes my brain in other worlds, and looses me from the pain and sickness. I got through my day of medication without noticing it, and finished the last article just as the pain started pulling me back to mortality.

It was perfect.

I might sleep sixteen hours now, but it was a lovely day that gave me an illusion of productivity, an attempt at participating in the world with the rest of mankind, and was a valiant effort at earning a little paycheck for my family for next month.

Mostly, I got to feel like a writer, instead of just a sick person.

Even my hat, to keep off the chills, was just for eccentricity, right?

Oh, it is happiness to me!

P.S. I haven’t written three articles in one day since the day my mom was killed. In fact, that’s what I was doing when the ambulance called us. So it’s kind of my first day back in a big way, and about time. Maybe we are healing more than just cancer?


About Emily

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints since 2009. I serve as a Chaplain, and work as a counselor. I got bilateral cochlear implants in 2010, but will always love sign language. I choose books over television, and organics over processed. Nothing is as close to flying as ballroom dancing - except maybe running, when in the solo mood. I would rather be outside than anywhere else, especially at the river riding my bike or kayaking. PhD in Marriage and Family Therapy, and currently doing a post-doc in Jewish Studies and an MDiv in Pastoral Counseling. The best thing about Emily World is that it's always an adventure, even if (not so) grammatically precise. The only thing better than writing is being married to a writer. Nathan Christensen and I were married in the Oklahoma City temple on 13 October 2012, and have since fostered more than eighty-five children. We have adopted the six who stayed, and are totally and completely and helplessly in love with our family. Nathan writes musical theater, including "Broadcast" (a musical history of the radio) and an adaption of Lois Lowry's "The Giver". He served his mission in South Korea, has taught song-writing in New York City public schools, and worked as a theater critic for a Tucson newspaper. This is not an official Web site of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

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