I may not wake ready to jump out of bed in the morning, but I can still roll out on my own and brush my teeth and read my scriptures.

I may not be able to bend down to reach the pot in the cabinet, but I can pour in my own oatmeal and stir it by myself.

I may not be able to lift the toddler into her car seat, but I can buckle her in after she crawls up on her own.

I may not be able to open the door to the learning center, but I can kiss Five’s forehead when he opens it for me.

I may not be able to run a 5k today, but I can still walk at the park, slowly and carefully and in circles close to the car.

I may not be able to do jumping jacks, but I can open my arms wide to soak in the sunshine and breathe the breath of trees.

I may not be able to do burpees, but I can stretch my arms high into the sky as I sing praises to my God.

I may not be able to do crunches, but I can roll my head around while I walk.

I may not be able to do push-ups, but I can stretch my arms across me to wake them up and remind me I am still here.

I may not be able to lift any weights, but I can push my arms behind me and call my core to healing.

I may not be able to do any windmills, but I can circle my arms big and wide until I feel me whole again.

I may not even make it a mile today, my big effort only coming in at .93, but I can take one step in front of another until I have roused myself from the sleep of anesthesia.

I may not be able to workout, but I can move, and live, and have my being (Acts 17:28).

And on a gorgeous day like this one?

I can do it in the sunshine.

Cancer can’t take that away.


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About Emily

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints since 2009. I serve as a Chaplain, and work as a counselor. I got bilateral cochlear implants in 2010, but will always love sign language. I choose books over television, and organics over processed. Nothing is as close to flying as ballroom dancing - except maybe running, when in the solo mood. I would rather be outside than anywhere else, especially at the river riding my bike or kayaking. PhD in Marriage and Family Therapy, and currently doing a post-doc in Jewish Studies and an MDiv in Pastoral Counseling. The best thing about Emily World is that it's always an adventure, even if (not so) grammatically precise. The only thing better than writing is being married to a writer. Nathan Christensen and I were married in the Oklahoma City temple on 13 October 2012, and have since fostered more than eighty-five children. We have adopted the six who stayed, and are totally and completely and helplessly in love with our family. Nathan writes musical theater, including "Broadcast" (a musical history of the radio) and an adaption of Lois Lowry's "The Giver". He served his mission in South Korea, has taught song-writing in New York City public schools, and worked as a theater critic for a Tucson newspaper. This is not an official Web site of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.


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