For our Sunday activity, Jess and I made this video for her parents (my brother and her mother).
Her sisters make “movies” all the time, and she wanted to make one, too. She was very funny about the rules for “movies”, including making sure I looked only at the computer (but not at the camera?!) and holding my head just right – you will see her adjust my head – and her own, the same way – several times throughout the video. It’s hilarious.
We had so much fun!
And I think for me, quite accidentally, since we were just discussing the issue, it was a big accomplishment project for how far I have come in a year and a half since getting my cochlear implants. It is easy to get overwhelmed by what is not yet done, what still needs work, and the mistakes that need correcting. But still, I have come a long way, and this helped me realize that in a different way, and that was good for me. It made me brave somehow, to keep trying, instead of exhausted by the battle.
It reminds me of General Conference, when they talked about the same principle being applied spiritually, that even though I have so much further to go, and still need so much correcting, and still fail in ways that are so frustrating to me, I can also look back down the mountain and see how far up He has brought me, and how much further along I am than a year ago, or two years ago. It is good for me to remember that.
And having stuff to work on is ALWAYS part of the process – it’s the paying attention so that you know what it is you need to be working on that’s important. So I will tackle my vowels and consonants, even in background noise, while also learning to be kind and forgiving and helpful.
There are several moments where you can see I did not understand her, but the two of us figure it out. You can also see me guess wrong sometimes, and see her get frustrated sometimes. But we sort through it pretty well, are patient with each other, and do just fine. I still think just having a friend – even little Jess – to just talk with and listen to is the very best listening rehab. You can also see the evidence that the nearly six months in Arkansas and Missouri helped iron out the confused accent left from speech rehab, LOL! But at least there is no “twang”, which I learned this weekend comes from the other side of an imaginary line between here and Arkansas – fascinating study. Anyway, you can see we are quite comfortable with each other.
Also, she is FOUR. So if I can understand her mostly, then I am doing just fine.
This video is also an example of what I was talking about, that when there are no other sounds, one person at a time, and know the person and am comfortable with them, then I can do really, really well. We filmed this in my bedroom with no background noise to worry about, and we did just fine. Even when I guess wrong sometimes. We did great!
We had so much fun, and laughed A LOT. I asked her a ton of questions, some of which she answered quite seriously and some she answered silly, but the tables got turned on me plenty times, too! She’s so wise!
There is also a special surprise after the closing title for those of you who are Razorback fans (University of Arkansas, FYI, for my foreign friends). It’s worth watching. I’m just saying.
It was very, very hard to keep a straight face throughout, but she was very insistent!