I have not slept in the last night. Not yet. I will now, soon.
I had writing to do. But now it is done and tucked away in my journal.
You might notice that there are a few tiny changes on my blog!
That’s because I have been writing in this blog for a year now, and so it was time to transition.
I took down all the posts from the last year, excepting for Temple pictures only (no blogs written about Temples are left – pictures only, and only of those Temples which I myself have visited). I love the Temple pictures so much I wanted to keep them, and that seems fair, but I wanted a fresh start for all my writing.
I am changing, and my perspective is changing, and the blog must change with me.
It is all good changes, the same kinds of changes as in my garden: deepening, growing, ripening, blossoming. It is a pruning, a refining, a necessary editing. It is good and right, and appropriate in its timing.
My blog can no longer be focused on learning about the church, though there will always be more to learn.
It must now focus on LIVING, which is an entirely different process.
I am becoming, present progressive-ly. I am in the process of continuing to be becoming.
And with that comes a baptism of reverence. It has washed over me, and I could not sleep until even my blog reflected that change within me. This is better now; it is as it should be.
It is time to “step-up” and more carefully choose my words as I gather my thoughts, and more precisely record them here in ways that are useful and helpful. It is time to hold close that which is sacred, and learn to remain silent on those things which are greater than words. It is time to write with a wise purpose.
My first year, the time leading up to my baptism, and all through last year, was focused on what seemed to be my heart-verse, my soul-scripture, my spirit-breath from 2 Nephi 4:16-21.
Behold, my soul delighteth in the things of the Lord; and my heart pondereth continually upon the things which I have seen and heard.
Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great goodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O wretched man that I am! Yea, my heart sorroweth because of my flesh: my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.
I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me.
And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted.
My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.
He hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh.
~ 2 Nephi 4:16-21
I still believe this to be my life-verses that I need to continue to ponder.
So I am leaving it up.
However, the second verses were about being grafted in, being transplanted from poor ground to being nourished by the Lord himself (Jacob 5:21-22).
21 And it came to pass that the servant said unto his master: How comest thou hither to plant this tree, or this branch of the tree? For behold, it was the poorest spot in all the land of thy vineyard.
These are beautiful and precious scriptures, and I love them well.
But now being grafted in, and soon to be endowed with the covenant of my obedience in exchange for the sealing promise of spiritual adoption, I am ready to change to a new motto for this second verse.
So, as you can see on the right, I have taken the quote we often see at Institute as my new motto for my second year in the church.
If 2 Nephi 4:16-21 is my life scripture, this second one will by my year’s scripture (as Jacob 5 was for the last year).
It is from Elder Richard G. Scott, from THIS TALK, and it says this:
“Your happiness now and forever is conditioned on your degree of conversion and the transformation that it brings to your life.”
I feel very prompted and confident that the coming year will develop through these words just as much as the last year developed through the words of Jacob 5.
It’s time to get to work now.
It is time to dig in.
So put your seat belt on.
Because year two begins now.